Finally I found me, myself and I!
For years I have been searching in all the wrong places and for all the wrong reasons, then today I tried to search my very own soul. Then suddenly I found myself, it’s ME! Why couldn’t I find myself before? Mainly because I never thought I can love myself as much as my ‘true love’ did.
What is true love? It’s that pure love that can last forever. It can be manifested by anyone to anybody and I never thought that I can have a love affair with myself until now. Today something amazing happened, finally I found me, myself, and I.
Someone had to inspire me to finally open my eyes in order for me to realize that I, too can have a love affair with my life. To be honest with you, I never thought in a million years that it is possible to really be in love with life and with your own self. Now I know better that there’s nothing impossible if you only have the faith to let it happen and be madly in love with yourself. Sometimes when I am an incurable romantic or just being a foolish one, it makes me smile and then say to myself, “So this is true love, finally”!
When I found my ‘first true love’ and unfortunately squandered it away until I’ve left my dear heart in San Francisco, I was so young and foolish then! It’s a long love story that I don’t even want to talk about anymore. Perhaps someday I will find that same ‘true love’ again and have a ‘second chance’ at another love affair. It was ‘love at first sight’ something that I never believed in until it struck me one glorious day in summertime eons of years ago. We even watched that magnificent sunrise at the airport observation deck together holding hands! Sweet memories of yesteryears, meeting someone special at a busy airport terminal after I missed my flight home is somewhat lovely and unforgettable. Let’s leave it at that, just lovely memories of long ago.
Hey, it’s the first day of my 2013 summer vacation and I wasn’t going to post a blog for a while but habits are hard to break so here I am posting this new blog today. Why the urgency of posting this one important blog? Maybe because I have finally come out alive, beaming with joy and just wants the whole world to know it! ‘Love your life!’ And ‘live life to the fullest’ is all I can say for now. And I’ve learned to Love ME!
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Here’s my own “love letter to the world” ….. (excerpts from my comment to laura’s guest post “A Love Affair with Life by Jacqueline Boone”)
wow, jacqueline, there you go again inspiring as ever! i don’t know why it took me a lifetime to make my dreams come true, so it’s now or never. yes, dreams do come true and for me who have waited a lifetime to make it happen, what can i say? i should have loved life the way you did long before but instead i have loved everyone and everything else; my family, my BF, my BFF, my close friends, my career except for me, my passion and my whole life!
it’s all about me now, ungrateful as it may seem, i have learned to love my life so much that i never want to squander away another minute living life the way i should have, that i can be really happy and well loved by me! And that’s truly living for me now!
i thanked everyone who came into my life. i never realized how important the “ME” was until recently even if i was the catalyst mostly of people around me since i always make all those great and lovely dreams in their own lives happen for them, but not for the one i could have, that’s me! why am i crying now? perhaps tears of joy!
all that is going to change right now and the love affair of my own life begins this moment in time; as in the poem invictus, “I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul.” by: William Ernest Henley
p.s. thanks laura of Defying Small for featuring my favourite inspirational blogger, Jacqueline Boone! and by the way, it’s her 30th birthday today!